MySpace Music

Hey Brook,

I just opened up my own music page at MySpace. Just click the link "Edd's Music" in my link tab.

Later days...

Feast Your Eyes

Just follow the link to check out our Starlight cover

Click this other link to see what music video fakey I got myself into now.

Later days

Too High on Adrenaline

And so it ends...The Dental Glam Night.

How was it?
- The best location EVER! Massive and the stage was great! Acoustics, nice.
- The whole event, not bad but could have been better.
- The emcees were, how do you say it? Bad? No fingers pointing, they just lack experience.
- Only a few Chinese went along with the party theme [movie]. Most if not all of them girls were dressed like they were going clubbing and Malay seniors dressed up like they're on their wedding day.
- 4th years rock, as always, gigam!


- After performing, got too much adrenaline in the blood, became too loud, out of control, embarrassing.
- Food. To me, great. The rendang was nice, sweet & spicy; the fish was awesome; the chicken, I can't remember, they all taste the same; desserts, cute, but I didn't get to eat much, full after the main meal.
- Like the dinner in my 2nd year, my foot cramped again. What friggin curse was at play?
- Did not get the chance to take a photo with my one-night-crush guy.

- But got a photo with one of the Vaders. Blurry though, too much force from both sides.
- Another Neo won the best dressed, he was the The Matrix version. I'm the Reloaded version. Of course I couldn't have won, a girl wearing a male's costume. Not in their lifetime.


The performance?

Not bad for my first time, a few slip-ups in the beginning and I think my tempo ran wild near the end. My keyboardist thought she was awful and wasn't satisfied at all. I'll upload the video on youtube once I get the chance.

I regret not recording Jason & Ib's performance, very creative but I was hungry.

And now, back to studies!

Later be thy days...

HeartBroken & MindBoggled

So sad, it's giving me backaches all over again.

Vypress is no longer fixable. Seems that cracked acoustic guitars are just tossed away. Damn guitar salesperson! Don't you say that to my dear Vypress! I'm not gonna toss her away. I mean she can still function as a guitar pretty well, I just hate the fact that she's torn up inside and behind.










It would be too irrational to store her away after I get a new one so I might probably lend it to my cousin until she can afford her own. I don't think selling her off would be a good idea since she was my first and nobody would buy a banged up guitar anyways.











So what now? Do I buy my friend's RM4XX, red, Ibanex Gax-70 or some other electric-acoustic for a cheaper price. This time, I am thinking through the financial aspect. What if I bought both? Throw in an amp, it would still cost me less than my 80G iPod Classic.

Am I serious about guitar playing? Well, now that I know I have the potential, I would love to get serious. Oh for goodness sakes, I easily bought the iPod without going over it like this, why am I all tangled up from deciding what to do? Where is all that guilt coming from?

IF I am ever going to get a new acoustic guitar, I'm surely not going for the fancy shmancy carbon fibre round-back ones. They do look young & hip, but I'd rather buy one with a hardwood back. They age gracefully and be of more value as it gets older [as long as I play it of course]. No, wait. That sounds poyo. I take that back. Whatever! As long as I can play comfortably well.

Later days...

The Aching Need

Damn you, Vypress!

See the crack? This was last year, now it's worse.

Why has it worsened? Because I did nay get it fixed & the new strings I bought are freakishly tensed & hard. I can't even play a full song without stopping a moment to mourn over the devastating truth that Vypress is a wreck. Plus, to rest the finger pads. Pins & needles man!

Anyway, I am in desperate need of a fix. Not like as in getting high [although you know I'd love to], but like an actual repair and maybe change those paining strings. Either that or I buy a new acoustic guitar. Hmmm...too irrational?

A friend of mine is offering his red Ibanez GAX-70 for around RM500 - RM400.


I asked for RM400 of course and he said, "as long as I know my 'bini' will be in good hands". Yeah well, he doesn't know what happened to Vypress. I never actually thought of getting myself an electric guitar since I'm not that good yet, but this deal is too good to pass up!

So, I kinda have to decide on 2 ultimate questions here:

1. Fix Vypress or buy a new acoustic guitar?

2. Buy the RM400 red Ibanez GAX-70 or wait for some other fool to give me a free one?

Whatever happens, I still need an acoustic guitar, new or not. It's not about the money, I just don't know if I can love a new guitar as much as I loved [past tense] Vypress. Plus, I don't know if the amount of dedication & skills I have now for striking those strings would increase as much as I hope it would by getting a new guitar.

Okay, you know what, I'll just get Vypress fixed. Hopefully before 10th April, I'm gonna be needing her on that day. Decision to buy the Ibanez or nay will be made around this coming Saturday. Fingers crossed!

Later days...

Laguku bes?!!

Brook! During the numerous blackouts today I opened the door to my room to let the air currents flow. During so, I just played carelessly on my guitar thinking that the other roomies wouldn't even be bothered to study since the light is being rather bitchy. I was working on my latest song [#3: Depth of Illusion(unconfirmed title)] which still needs work. I played up to the part where I had to work on so I stopped to think, then a roomie knocked on my door and asked,
Her : "Kak, nak tanye. Ape tajuk lagu nih?"
Edd : "Umm..tak tau lagi, baru buat,"
Her : "Lagu akak?!"
Edd : "A'ah,"
Her : "Laa ye ke?! best la kak. Saya dok dgr gak time akak main, saya ingatkan lagu sape la, nanti nak cari. Lagu akak ke? bes laa!"
Edd : "Oh ye ke? hahaha..tankyu2..ahaha. Akak baru buat hari Isnin baru nih, lom siap lg kot"
Her : "Oh, akak buat la kaset,"
Edd : "Ahahaha...tgk la dlu..ahaha!" - awkward...did not know how to respond
Her : "bes tau," - then goes off to toilet
Edd : "Okay, tankyu!"

Waahh...that was a first and it felt incredible. I'm still smiling now, it's been an hour. Good thing my songs aren't metal or I'd envision myself being kicked out of this apartment. I'm sky high right now..aaaaaahh.

Okay...later be the days!

Songs So Deep, Turns Me On

After much consideration, I decided to post this anyway since I'm happy creating new songs. The numbers are according to sequence in time.

1. This I Promise You by N*Sync
- listening to this makes me cringe nowdays, aaaahhh the 90s

2. The Scientist by Coldplay
- still loving it

3. Suralaya Dalam D Major by Amy Search
- haven't heard it for a while. can't even find a link for it on youtube

4. Swallowed in the Sea by Coldplay
- aaaaahh makes me want to forget my phobia of the sea

5. I Won't See You Tonight Pt.1 by Avenged Sevenfold
- the most romanticly metal for me so far

6. Glorious by Muse
- mmg bhn khayalan la

7. Nude by Radiohead
- keeps me in bed on Sunday mornings

8. Watch Over You by Alter Bridge
- sad sad song of a lost loved one...to drugs

9. Don't Walk Away by The Mayfield Four
- I won't even think of such things!

10. White Flag by The Mayfield Four
- makes me feel I'm in love [dream on]

11. Sorrow by Sevendust ft. Myles Kennedy
- FEEL...

12. Everything Changes by Staind
- emo+sad!

13. Danse Russe [raw version] by HURT
- this piece just fills up my insides [p/s: for better sound quality go to my myspace link]

these are some of the ones that I can remember...hope I didn't miss some of the bests.

later days...

eff-off PMS !!

Oh Brook how I despise this part of being a female. Not that I'm a fan of the other features but I'm not complaining...yet [keeping pregnancy in mind..DAMN]. While this won't be the major topic here, I'll just mention what it has done to me. Let's just say I'm seeing my old self again...nuff sed. If this goes on any longer I think I should eventually see someone about it before dejavu really takes over.

Recently I'v got my old poetic mood again. I finally managed to write the right lyrics for this rhythm I had playing on the guitar for God knows how long. All I needed was one quiet night with Brook [my old journal] opened up before me. After I was done, I flipped a few pages back to read my previous compositions. Amazingly enough, it was like reading off a stranger's confession of their suicidal tendencies. But no shame because it serves as a reminder of what I have felt. I do hope I'd be able to find the right melody for the short poetic ones and turn them into emo songs...that would be so...emo, it'll be so gay. The more-than-one-page rants? I might post some of the good ones. No, I'll never burn them because although hatred feeds the beast in me, the beast is one hell of a writer [haha!].


Aaaahh, songwriting, what joy it brings me. Let's all make our own songs and sing honesty from our hearts [...drunk hippy]. I posted a fake dark, emo post a few weeks ago hoping it would ignite the rage of my beast within. Well let me inform you that it failed. Although the post itself was considerable enough, the lyrical content for my latest song [2nd original] seems to be short of any dark thoughts or deathly influences. It was actually my view on how love can destroy one's soul. Having no experience, I guess you can say it reflects my fear of falling in love. Like my first work - which is yet to be named - the music is sweet but the lyrics are sad and thoughtfull [influenced by My Brightest Diamond and Feist]. For a metalhead, I can't say I'll ever come up with my own metal song. Metal is purely one of the greatest form of art ever to be summoned from the pits of hell \,,/ . I kneel before it's greatness.
Wait a minute, I already have a few Helloween and DragonForce influenced poems...hmmm.

LATER days..
p/s: missing Firdaus