The Journey Begins

Assalamualaikum...

          26 years.
          It took me 26 years to finally get on the right track. The transition is over. From here on forth, all my energy and knowledge shall be dedicated to my absolute goal. My dear God, Ya Allah, I live to serve You. I beg You not to make me lose my way this time. I realized that You have given me what I have always asked for, how blind I have been. How blinder could I still be? Is this Your comedy my dear Allah? I am a fool, for I am only Your servant.

          UiTM is now my current field for knowledge gathering. Allow me to be frank, I miss UKM. As cliche as it sounds, it will always be in my heart. It was a place that gave me a special lesson...directly and indirectly. One of them was to trust Him no matter what. UKM was where I found that something was missing inside, it gave me a reason to start searching for what I needed to find - or at that time, what I thought I lost, happiness.

         A never ending quest I suppose, that search for our purpose in life. Our sole purpose. I agree we should trust Him in giving us one when He pulled us out of the darkness in the first place. It's the beauty of this life He created. We are forever bound in this sacred pact of life, forever connected through the finest strings of molecular structure. I wish to preserve that. Now, I may or may not be where I should be, but I have reasons to believe that somehow, I am. And so I fear Your wrath, Dear Allah, forgive me if I ever overjoyed, ever too proud, for I am weak.

I got myself here, or was that You Allah? :) . And so lemons will not only be turned to lemonades but also lemon meringue pies, lemon tarts, lemony sponge cake with lemon flavoured butter cream filling.

Strength & Honour!

     

Sepak Terajang Sama Mereka

First Malay title.
But yes, the rest will be in English...kot...ok not

Improvised and exaggerated version of today's discussion:

Parents: You're too rigid. You have to be more flexible and humane.

Me: Yelah yelah...I know. And I know my ego is up here [hand above head].

Parents: Ye ke?

Me: Yelah yelah...nun di sana [points towards the sky] celestial egoism. Astronomically speaking.


So marilah sama2 bantu saya sepak terajang sama setan2 dalam hamba Allah yg lemah ini.
InsyAllah saya boleh jadi insan molek skit. Xdela emo sokmo.

Time kasih.

Myselves - Hotness

Filmed 2 months ago...thought it was too ugly so left it aside and forgotten.
Got tired cleaning the house and thought,
"I'm tired cleaning the house, I think I'll edit some vids!"

here's the first one: Myselves - Playing Questions

New POST!

For today, I made a mistake of waking up to FND Films [A Youtube channel by Aaron Fronk & Vinny Dego]. It made me feel like being angry and high all day. Banzai & The Dude...what a mix. My roomie is lucky for not being here since Thursday's pm. Oh, did I mention?! I had a college sleepover for this weekend. And probably for the next...and the other...until exam week's up and done!

It's been a lockdown! All the 5 of me came out but only Banzai and The Dude hosted, the rest just hung around pretending to exist.

0900
Edd: Nice, Pushing Daisies S02E05 is done! Caching! Breakfast time...
[watches Pushing Daisies and continues with FND Films]

1200
Banzai: Edd, you moron! You still have your friggin DPH assignment to do!
Dude: Oh man, I thought I was gonna lay today mann...like lay on the floor here.
[lays on the floor]
Dude: oh yeah, this coldness is so cool
Banzai: And I know you don't want to present tomorrow's prostho crap. I'm not doin it.
Dude: That prostho crap is sick mann. It's like when you're trying to put on your socks in the morning and you can't look down coz you had a mega-headbanging session last night..[reminisces last night]..so you have to raise that foot and stand on one leg doing it but then it cramps your ass and you accidentally kicked the chair with the other foot and then you fall down. And when you got both socks on you realized it's a Saturday. That is just fcuked up mann.
Banzai: Fcuked up like you.
Dude: Like you too mann. you're like the master of fcukg yourself and everyone up
Banzai: I'm not fu...
Dude: hellyeah you are!!
Banzai: Dude I'm not the one who breathes in crack like everyone breathe in oxygen... 24/7..that's super-fcuked up
Dude: Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Banzai: Yeah you do, you even do it in your sleep
Dude: Nooooooo i don't mann..i take my beauty sleep seriously. i sleep like 10 hours a day
Banzai: Yeah, for 2 days straight
Dude: Nooo....what?
Banzai: you said you sleep 10 hours a day right?
Dude: yeah
Banzai: well you do it for 2 days straight
Dude: .......what?
Banzai: Like, you sleep 10 on Friday and 10 on Saturday, continuously
Dude: .......wait...what day is it?
Banzai: ...what? are you fcukg kidding me?! are you high? what am i sayin, of course you're high...nevermind.
[a moment of silence while Banzai gets pissed off and Dude tries to focus]
Banzai: Look, i think Edd's friggin losing it, look at what she's doin'. dude, look, dude..
Dude: What?
[both looks at Edd and what she's doing]
Edd: ............What the fcuk are you looking at?!
Dude: Hahahahaha...what are you doing dude...hahhaha!
Banzai: now that's super fcuk up
[both laughs hysterically]
Edd: shut up...[stopped, went to laptop, continued friggin assignment]
Banzai: [whispers to Dude] hey lets choke her with a plastic bag

1500
Edd: .........................................................................

Dude: later be the days dudessssssssssssshakalaka BOOOM!

Laguku bes?!!

Brook! During the numerous blackouts today I opened the door to my room to let the air currents flow. During so, I just played carelessly on my guitar thinking that the other roomies wouldn't even be bothered to study since the light is being rather bitchy. I was working on my latest song [#3: Depth of Illusion(unconfirmed title)] which still needs work. I played up to the part where I had to work on so I stopped to think, then a roomie knocked on my door and asked,
Her : "Kak, nak tanye. Ape tajuk lagu nih?"
Edd : "Umm..tak tau lagi, baru buat,"
Her : "Lagu akak?!"
Edd : "A'ah,"
Her : "Laa ye ke?! best la kak. Saya dok dgr gak time akak main, saya ingatkan lagu sape la, nanti nak cari. Lagu akak ke? bes laa!"
Edd : "Oh ye ke? hahaha..tankyu2..ahaha. Akak baru buat hari Isnin baru nih, lom siap lg kot"
Her : "Oh, akak buat la kaset,"
Edd : "Ahahaha...tgk la dlu..ahaha!" - awkward...did not know how to respond
Her : "bes tau," - then goes off to toilet
Edd : "Okay, tankyu!"

Waahh...that was a first and it felt incredible. I'm still smiling now, it's been an hour. Good thing my songs aren't metal or I'd envision myself being kicked out of this apartment. I'm sky high right now..aaaaaahh.

Okay...later be the days!

NO MORE BOOKS!! WANT TO RAYA!!

Seriously Brook, I can't gather my mind to study anymore. With 3 more days to go, who can? And why in the hell are there still classes on Raya's eve?!! Not to mention clinics! OK..no more of my uni crap, because of it, it'll be my first time celebrating 1st day of Raya in Bangi and not in Kelantan with all the other families and not to mention my lovely cousins. And because of that we'll be having the annual 8-hour journey on the same day after the morning prayers, what a way to celebrate an incredibly joyous day. Well it's not all up to me, my brother is in the same situation too, work up to Raya's eve and only having 2 days off. Grrrr to the gov authorities!

Brook: So, I hear you're staying alone in your apartment for the weekends. What's up with that?
Edd: Yeah, I know. Most un-bodacious! My social meter is deteriorating so fast I wish I have a Sims cheat to keep it stable.
Brook: OMG Edd, purple? [whisper]
Edd: shut up [whisper]
Brook: [cont] Then why don't you just go home?
Edd: I'm gonna, trust me. I just needed some time alone to get the juicy inspirations back into my blood. I've got a new tune on the guitar so I'll be going home in a few hours.
Brook: What else have you done in your time alone?
Edd: Well...I've been bored.


That's my solo breakfast meal bought from a nearby baazar. Not homecooked but there wasn't much choice and tea is a must!









Teman hidup.











Teman hidup sorang lagi. My mistress, Vypress...ahaha!











Tempat dating ngan mistress.








And stay in there, I've no time to babysit you guys anymore..uhuhu!











My well-managed food and beverage bar. The only thing I lack is stock. Closing in on the holidays, food stock diminishes.










Let's look outside. Wow, if I had parkour skills I'd be able to make that jump and break into that apartment. I wonder what I'd find.










Don't give me that look young man. You've got a great deal of things to learn in your life ahead and utter boredom is one of them.










The other view. Not much life in colour. Or is it my phone cam?








That's not funny Firdaus. Taula parents awak ade hp canggih...even your pic here is full of life..aaawwww!









Come on people! Seed me! The download is so slow! I need this before Raya!!











Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin

Later days...