To be more than A person...

I guess I can assume that everybody generally knows what the condition 'multiple personality' means. But how would it feel to actually experience this mental 'disease'? Can you even tell if you actually are? And can you actually tell each personality from another? Could the 'change' be a temporary alternate ego sort of thing or a permanent 'turn a leaf' kind of thing? Can you even tell?

When you think about it, whoever made such classifications? Multiple personalities. It might not even be a mental disorder like many believes. There are many other explanations but why did we choose to categorize them as 'crazy'? I can't help to think that the world we live in is just too much of a box that we can hardly see our true reflection in the mirror. Of course it is never too late to break free from a pre-determined perspective but it's hard to figure out what to break free from. What should you focus on and what should be overlooked? Will our search ever end or more importantly, would it lead anywhere?

I'm just curious as to where these multiple personality people actually acquire their alternate selves. Through what I have previously read or heard, they are conjured from their unmet desires or a trauma. If that's so, then I think this 'disease' might just be our physiological way of dealing with it. The human mind's reaction to an action. The action in context has to be something that has constantly occupied the mind of the 'sufferer'. When you're craving for something it's bound to pop up in your mind 24/7. The same thing with traumatic events. So I believe these frequent thoughts may leave imprints in their minds, including how the body reacted towards it at that period of time and although later in life the 'sufferer' may think they have moved on, even up to the point of forgetting the desires or trauma, there is a dormant memory of how their whole body's reaction towards them. React by creating either defensive or offensive personalities towards these thought consumations. What makes the body choose one from the other? I think that has something to do with my usual thought of humanity, unstability. We live in a vast environment luxurious of stimulus and the individuality of a human mind just makes it a thousand times harder to pin point the actual cause.

I'm not sure if I can call it self protection but it is all in the mind. I don't know if this is what they are going through but it's just a thought. And not to say that I've been through it before but I think I have a mild example of how I think it works. I love listening to songs and I review different albums nearly every week. As I do this, I go through my every day aquarian changes of feelings, tantrums and behaviour affecting theories. If at one point in time I'm stuck with a particular band and their album of songs, I keep thinking about them nearly 24/7 as I try to study and pray as well. Their songs would be playing in my head day in, day out. And whatever type of attitude I had on at that particular time will be paired with that album. The pair leaves a memory and whenever I hear the stimulus (the songs), the attitude makes a comeback, the feelings return although I have moved on to become a better person or otherwise. I think everyone can relate to this type of event. But in multiple personality people, I guess their desires or fears were so strong that the memory comes back as a whole personality, knocking out the real self.

Hummph, I don't know if anybody who reads this would understand because I'm writing and developing ideas at the same time. If you know me, then you'd know I'm bad at juggling tasks.

Damn that was a hard topic to think of but I'm still not satisfied. I know there are books or websites all around to read from but I'm trying to make my own versions of perspective and think outside the box.

Later be the days...